Letting God

Today, I went to my classroom to begin packing it up.  I didn't expect to break down three times in the process.  I think I was just so overwhelmed by the sadness of feeling the end of a life as I dusted off games and placed them into a box, that I couldn't stop the tears from coming. It's the end of a life because I am leaving behind all that I know, all of whom I love, and all that has made me.  This will be my greatest test of faith as it was, I am sure, for Abraham.

Like Abram, I am leaving my family, my comfort zone, my home and heading into the unknown. My limited understanding is blocking my faith and complete trust in God.  I know God has a place for me.  I know His intentions are good and are for my prosperity.  I just don't know how to let go.

How did the James and John drop their nets, their life, and follow Jesus?  How did they let go without any knowledge of what was to come?  Truly, none of us know what the future holds, but when you have to leave behind all that you do know and all that you love, it's definitely more frightening.

It's amazing how God works.  I typed in the title of this post with the full intention of calling it "Letting Go," but as I looked at the screen to what I typed, I saw what you're seeing now, "Letting God."  Perfect.  God at work, right there.  I'm trying to find the right words to describe the peace that's instantaneously come over me.  I need to just let God.  That's how you let go.  Let God.

Let God work.  Let God lead.  Let God give.  Let God be God.  Let go, let God.  Obviously that's a saying we have all heard before, but I don't think I gave it much thought until now.  I need to let go of all I know and let God be what I know.  Therefore, I am letting go of my net of fear so that they don't drag me down.  I am letting God carry me.  I am letting go of my net of questions so that they don't hold me back from following Christ.  I am letting God push me forward.  I am letting go of my net of unknowns so that I'm not caught in the traps of them.  I am letting God untangle me in His timing, by His hands.

Letting go and letting God.  Not a new concept, but one I needed reminding of today.  I will go into my classroom tomorrow with this reminder on my mind and in my heart.  The tears may come again, but perhaps not so much for the sadness of leaving but rather for the joy of following in faith.